Keep a food diary

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According to “5 Tips to Indulge in Fattening Food & Still Stay Slim” you need to keep a food diary to stay slim. You have all had to suffer through my ineffective attempts to diet, which have included a food diary. I think I just need to start a regular diary/journal (as an attempt at getting more done) and then move to a food diary.

Maybe that will work.
Then again, probably not.

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NOTE:

Midnight cravings

2013.08 Donuts 3949669230_b9ddbc62e2_zSomeone left a box of donuts in the kitchen. All I can think about is that I want one.

I’ve spent the last three hours trying to uninstall and reinstall Adobe Acrobat Pro. It was working fine on Sunday. Today it tells me that there’s a problem with the registration and I should uninstall and reinstall. Which I am trying to do. Except it keeps telling me that I don’t have access to one of the files that needs to be updated.

WTF?

Unfortunately, this is a program I use regularly, so I can’t just ignore it. But I need to get some sleep.

And I want a donut.

I think I am going to go to sleep and leave the computer doing whatever it is it’s doing.

And, hopefully, someone will throw out the donuts before I wake up in the morning.

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Photo courtesy of Robert Bahn at http://www.flickr.com/photos/34967771@N06/3949669230/. 

This week’s updates

My brother and his fiancee are on the paleo-diet. From what I know of it, it sounds like a modified version of Atkins. I will probably look into it more, so I have info on what it’s actually about.

Because they’ve moved back into his house, where I’ve been living/housesitting for them, their diet is only one of the things I’m going to have to learn to deal with until I decide on my next step. The first thing they did was clean out the pantry and the refrigerator for items that they can’t eat. In their (weak) defense, they did check with me first. I told them to go ahead.

I’m hoping that everyone in the house being on a diet will make it easier for me. We shall see. I know that he’s already started to make noises about getting me to work out. Again, we shall see. 

Monday, April 22

9:00 am
I drove by McDonald’s for my morning coffee, as I do most mornings, and I added a sausage burrito. That’s my typical breakfast. I’ve figured out that that’s 10 Weight Watchers points for me, it’s fast and filling.

2:00 pm
Lunch was a roasted chicken salad with blue cheese dressing. Yes, I know that the choice of dressing adds to my daily intake by quite a bit, but I wanted the taste. For some reason, the salad just wasn’t as appetizing to me as it usually is. I think I just wasn’t in the mood for a salad today.

The rest of the Week

I forgot to update this blog post the rest of the week.

Who is the fat girl in the photo?

I went to an event over the weekend and was feeling good about myself — I wore a nice dress, heels (without incurring injury), and had a nice time. All in all, it was great.

Until I saw the photos.

Why is it always such a shock to see myself, the real “outside” self, in photos? I’m always taken by surprise by my size, the shape of my face, the fact that I’m bigger than almost everyone else in the photos.

Who is the fat girl in the photo?

The ironic thing is that almost as soon as I step away from the photo, the dismay disappears. It only reappears at odd moments like when I have to weigh in at the doctor’s office, sit in an airline seat, try on new clothes and look at the size of what actually fits (instead of what I think is going to fit).

I know that I could not live with that level of self… disapproval, with the constant feeling of disappointment in myself. But I do wonder: if I did feel like that all the time, would I be more motivated to lose weight?

{{Sigh}}

Even if I did lose the weight, the photos are forever.

***** Written on my ipad. I promise to proof and edit it later (maybe). ******